Do I really appreciate what I have? I’ve been asking myself this question for an entire week. My life is far from perfect, I’ve experienced things most people hear stories about. And it seems like every couple months something else just shakes up my world. But I’m very blessed. I love my life.
I’m here in New York for the summer, and to be honest with you I’m not as ecstatic as I thought I would be. I’m not waking up every morning and enjoying the view. I’m not thinking about all the exciting things I can do on my days off. I’m not even thinking about the exciting things I get to be a part of at work. So I ask myself, am I taking this experience for granted? I’m not. Well, at least I don’t think I am. “But why am I not as excited as everyone else?”
I’m moving to Columbus for law school in about two months. The process has been long and terrifying. I’ve had to find a place to live, sign a lease, put down a deposit, and buy furniture. This is probably the most expensive summer of my life; so much money will be spent on this move. Thank God my family and I are able to afford it. I’m not going crazy, I’m not purchasing everything I see- I have a budget. Sometimes I forget how blessed I am. That I have the opportunity to move 1,000 miles away from home and fulfill a life long dream.
Yesterday put alot of things into perspective. And that led me to write this post. Just when I was feeling a bit insecure (another post for another day) I received an email that blew my mind. My law school awarded me another scholarship, which dropped my tuition down to under $9,000. By the way, tuition is $44,056. I honestly sat in my room for about 15 mns in complete shock.
I work hard for everything I have. I’m not one to make excuses for myself. I’m not one to give up before I even try. I put my all into everything I do.
2014 and the begining of 2015 didn’t go as planned. There were numerous breakdowns. I honestly felt like giving up, until I checked myself. I guess this is what I’m doing right now by writing this post.
I don’t want to take what I have for granted. I’m so (expletive) blessed. My goal is to remind myself of that everyday.